Author: twoshadesoff

if you’ve read my previous posts you know I’m an alcoholic. I have a history of seizures and hallucinations when I try to detox. Which is dangerous. I went to the hospital about a month ago cause I wanted to detox under medical supervision. My BAC was 3.something. For yall who don’t know, that’s more…

This was when I was living out in the country. I can’t remember if the road was gravel or dirt, but it definitely wasn’t paved. Our driveway was about 1/2 a mile long. It had blackberry bushes all along the side. My sister and I would go picking them… we ate more than we brought…

She was probably too young to remember this. She was in elementary school. She was sick so I came over to take care of her cause her mom had to be at work. That’s what a godfather does. There was one thing that made me smile and another that made me laugh. I’ll start with…

It used to, may still be, the rape capitol of the world. One woman down there made an invention. It was a plastic thing a woman could put in her vagina. Wasn’t any more uncomfortable than a tampon. It had barbs in it. When a man would try to rape a girl the barbs would…

All I have to say is I’m sorry.

Don’t know if I’ve posted this before but I’m still going to post it anyways because no one reads my blog anyways and it’s a thought in my head. I was a maintenance tech for cox communications out in Vegas. Which means I got called out in the middle of the night to fix outages.…

It was probably 25 years ago. She was a couple years younger than me. I wish I could remember her name. We dated for a bit. She lived close to Zebulon GA. It was about an hour drive but I’d go pick her up and bring her to my place in Norcross. Sometimes we’d go…

I used to be a huge fan. Hell, he basically had country music conquered. Then he wanted to go POP cause it made more money. Which is fine. Shania Twain did the same thing. But he did it a different way. He made an alter ego… Chris Gains. He even went as far as making…

I’m sad 100% of the time. Some days are worse than others. But I’ve gotten a masters degree in pretending so you’d never know. Every day I’m battling suicidal thoughts. Take that as you will. Judge me or don’t. Up to you.

We get black widow spiders here in Georgia. But in Vegas, where I lived for a long time, we get allloootttt more. At my apartment they’d make webs on my porch. Sometimes I’d fuck with them. They’re very timid and I’d pluck their web and watch them run away. It made me laugh. I’d also…